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Rean Schwarzer, the Ashen Gofer ([personal profile] motiv8) wrote in [personal profile] jurai 2019-03-26 02:58 am (UTC)

God, I don't know... at the time, I just chalked it up to her not wanting me to come over and baby her, I guess? Figured she was trying to strike out on her own.

[See how well that worked out.

He does listen to Crow, sighing a little once he's done. His leniency does have a ceiling, but...]


...don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you don't have a point. I'm going to call them anyway – even if I somehow can't weasel an address out of them, which would be amazingly stupid but I'm not putting past her at this point, I really ought to tell them about you.

[And it would be a shame to rain on that good news with all this.]

But... I am her brother, after all, and I know my parents. They... mm. How do I put this?

[He sighs, gaze turning up toward the pillows he has set up as a makeshift headboard.]

I don't want to sound ungrateful. They love us, they put everything they had into raising us and neither of us were ever wanting for a thing. But even so... I can't deny they can be a little overbearing.

They've got high expectations of both of us... her especially. And when something holds either of us back from meeting those... I know they just worry, I know they mean well. But it's why both of us learned how to shrug everything off and act like nothing was ever wrong. Bottling everything up and falling apart is easier than dealing with them.

The disappointment, the misguided attempts at advice and solutions that just wind up making you feel more inadequate... I've been the one taking most of that all our lives. And knowing what it's like, it's a hard pill to swallow to imagine pushing all that on her now.

[A pause, then soft, bitter laughter.]

...'sides. I'm probably the last person that ought to talk about wasting tuition...

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