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Crow "show dem titties" Armbrust ([personal profile] jurai) wrote2018-10-29 11:11 pm

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CROW ARMBRUST
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-07 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Rean knows, the minute he hears the softness in Crow's voice, that this tone isn't something anyone else is ever going to hear. A warmth blooms in his chest at that, spreading to fill him to his extremities.

For once, Rean isn't concerned when Crow doesn't respond immediately. It gives him a moment to soak in their comfortable silence as well, to commit to memory how Crow's arms feel around him and how his heartbeat has picked up its pace just a little, to savor how Crow's fingertips feel against his scalp.

Crow's voice, when it comes, is a comfort all its own. Low and soft as it validates two lifetimes worth of emotion, Rean drinks in the sound as his eyes slip closed with a soft sigh.

"Back then and now." And Rean doesn't doubt for a minute that it's true. He still can't quite shake the way Crow looked at him, running his fingers through his hair just like this. Neither of them had said it, back then, but Rean knew.

Rean's said it a lot lately, how this life is a chance to atone for the mistakes of their past. For him... the mistake he's atoning for, more than anything, is never having told Crow how he felt.

He'll make up for it. He'll say it as many times as he can, until that warmth becomes a natural part of Crow, and long past that just because he can. Because he is here, he is alive, and there is no force in this world that is going to tear the two of them apart without a hell of a fight.]


...I did, too. Back then. [A gentle admission.] But... you probably knew, didn't you?
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-07 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh... I'm not sure I've ever counted as "normal," to be fair.

[Still, he nestles into his boyfriend-pillow with a sigh.]

...I knew you were lying, though. When you said it didn't matter to you. All the things I remember us doing, all the ways I remember you helping us out... it didn't make sense for you to do any of that if you didn't care about us at all. About me at all.

You were just trying to shove me away because it'd be easier than having to deal with it. But...

[He can't help the nostalgic little smile that spreads on his face, eyes warm as he moves to glance up at Crow.]

Your mistake was forgetting that I can be a royal pain, too. Enough of one to chase you down here, too.
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-08 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Rean grins a little, pleased with himself for earning that laugh.]

Yeah, well. I see what I want, and I can be... [His voice cracks a little as he says the next word, but he continues nonetheless.] relentless.

[He shakes his head a little, doubling as a nuzzle into Crow's chest.]

I wish I remember why he did it. He was devoted to his cause, whatever it was, but... my memory cuts out right before he told the story.

He was just as cagey as you can be now, though. Kept trying to get around telling me. Started by asking if I was interested in any of the girls...

[A beat.]

Which. Now that I think of it, is kind of like what you were trying to do in February, isn't it?

[Calling you out, Crow.]

But anyway, when I shook that off, he just tried to tell me it wasn't anything exciting, like that would change anything. Like you, before we met on that swingset...

So I can't help but think that he must have had a pretty damn good reason for doing everything he did... I mean, murder's still murder, but. I still have faith in him. In you.
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-08 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Rean doesn't mind at all. It's comforting, in a way.]

...Please. Can't speak for my past life, but I think you're about the best decision I've made in the past three years of my life.

[There's an edge of bitterness to that, to be certain, but he's genuine.]

It's funny, you know... you say you ought to copy off his homework a little less, and here you are using almost the same words he did.

[Although his head still rests atop it, Rean brings his hand up toward that piercing scar, tracing patterns absently as he speaks.]

"Right where I shot Osborne, too. Karma's a bitch, huh?"

[Rean sighs, but then flicks his gaze up toward Crow.]

You too, though. ...About reasons, I mean. Unless you get ghost memories or something, in which case, fill me in on those, too.



[Rean's quiet for a while after that, just tracing those patterns on Crow's chest and letting Crow play with his hair. Eventually, though...]

...Although... fate, huh. [He sounds thoughtful, distant.] ...say, Crow. Do you believe in soulmates...?

[His breath hitches the moment the last word leaves his mouth, as if he's uncertain.]

...Mm. Never mind, it's a stupid question. Forget I asked.
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-08 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
Aha... ha. Don't ask questions you don't want the answers to, Crow. [He's... mostly kidding. There's still a certain guilt gnawing at the back of his mind, but... mm. Now isn't the time. A little more lightheartedly, he continues.] So, I won't ask the same of you.

[...Ah. Crow took him seriously, there. He'd been joking, really...]

...I was kidding about the ghost bit, you know. I didn't mean... [He shakes his head a little again.] ...Well. If I find out anything, I already promised to let you know, right? But... if I'm honest, I think "peace" probably would be the best we can hope for. If he and I are the same... I'm not sure I'm strong enough to move on after losing someone like you.

[He goes quiet again, swallowing hard. He tries to keep his voice steady when he continues, to middling success.]

...It doesn't matter, anyway. We're here now, and... even if it's a little late, I finally got what I was after, didn't I? And we can walk forward into whatever the future holds for both of us. Without either of us leaving the other behind.

[Crow's response to his stupid question, despite Rean's urging, gets Rean's breath to hitch a little. It's almost like he's afraid of the answer.]

So... "not at first, but I do now?" Because that's more or less how I feel now, too.

So I just... wonder sometimes. ...About us. [His voice gets smaller and smaller as he goes. He's used to impassioned, corny speeches, but this is a little out of his comfort zone.] But... it's probably too early to think about anything like that, right? So... it's like I said, just forget it.
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-08 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
...Yeah.

[He sounds more confident at the idea of just focusing on their lives now. Relieved.




...and then any sense of calm is ripped away from him when Crow starts rolling with him, leading Rean to yelp and flail a little.]


H-hey...!

[He's breathing a little rougher when Crow stops, pulling away a little mostly to reassure himself of his freedom. But not far - enough that he can lock his gaze with Crow's directly, his eyes a little wide and his cheeks dyed darker.]

I...

[He wasn't expecting Crow to agree with him, which is why he shied away twice. But here they are.]

...Yeah. [His gaze softens a little, and although it might be hard to quite make out the warmth of it in the darkness, it's there.] That's how I feel, too.

[There are more thoughts swirling in his mind, but... not now. He's too comforted by that answer to be too concerned with any of them, right now.

They'll work things out at their own pace, and for now, that's enough.

He shifts himself again, this time to move upward so that he can press his lips to Crow's. It's a soft kiss, but passionate all the same; his eyes flutter closed and he lingers for a moment or two, reveling in the airy feeling that's pushed aside some of his darker thoughts for the time being.

What's past is past, and they're together now. He can do things like this, or curl up against his chest and listen to his heartbeat while Crow plays with his hair, and it's okay. Everything else could come in time.]
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-08 12:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rean gives a tiny, contented hum when they finally pull apart, his eyes taking a moment to reopen in the afterglow.

And then there are covers being pulled over them, which Rean can't complain about, and then—]


But...

[But school is important, Crow...! Even so, he doesn't keep up the fight for long, pouting a little but sighing in defeat almost immediately.]

...At least go to your important classes. Those aren't until later, right?

[And there's nothing about him going to school today, so it seems like this is a compromise.]
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-09 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
Okay.

[Rean seems to accept this, at least. So long as he's not holding Crow back from things he actually cares about...!

He nestles into Crow again, letting his body relax fully.]


'Night, then. Love you.

...and sorry for keeping you up so late.
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-09 12:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm. You too.

[Rean's already starting to mumble his words a bit, eyes slipping closed and starting to doze off himself.

It is hard not to get addicted to this warmth, this affection that envelops him like a comforting blanket. And the best thing is, he doesn't have to hold himself back.]
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-10 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[For the most part, it's a good sleep. Rean wakes up a couple of times throughout the... well, morning, every bump and noise seeming to trigger flashes of some memory or another in his dream and starting him back to wakefulness. Still it's easy enough to be coaxed back to sleep with Crow right nearby, fast asleep and snoring softly.

When they do finally get up, it's not like Rean's looking much better. He hadn't bothered to brush his hair before running over, and after sleeping on it once it'd already been poking out in several directions that weren't quite his normal. After passing out a second time, he's looking several shades of ridiculous. So he's in no position to judge Crow... and besides, if he's honest, it's kind of cute.

Rean's still lounging around in pajama pants and a pullover hoodie he stole from Crow when Crow comes back downstairs, petting Pachinko and quietly muttering for the cat to watch his claws against his pajama pants. When Crow calls to him, he snaps his head up, his glasses sliding slightly down his nose.]


Huh? ...Ah. [He smiles a little.] Gonna actually make me put in effort? How dare you.

[He's clearly joking, though, as he pushes himself up without complaint other than to softly apologize to Pachinko for leaving him. He has no problem accompanying Crow. Really, he would have offered to join had Crow tried to go on his own.]

Give me a bit, then. Can't promise beautiful, but I can at least get you "presentable."

[And so Rean heads upstairs himself. At this point, he's migrated over a couple items of clothing, so it's not impossible to put together an outfit that isn't comprised of the clothes from yesterday that he wore over.

...For the most part. He doesn't exactly have a jacket. There's the one he wore over – the lovely phoenix-embroidered one he got from the mailbox – but really, that's better suited for winter. ...Well, he does have this pullover he'd been wearing. The cool grey definitely suits Crow better than him, but it'll do.

Some attempt at taming his appearance later, Rean returns downstairs.]


All right, sorry for the wait. Where are we headed?
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-10 12:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rean can't help but laugh a little and roll his eyes at Crow's theatrics, calling back down on his way up the stairs.]

Which is sweet and all, but still doesn't really make me presentable for the general public!

[When Rean comes back down, he doesn't miss Crow staring at him. But being who he is, he manages to completely misunderstand it, glancing down at the hoodie and then back to Crow.]

Do I still look that tired like this? I just figured it'd work for the weather...

[Oh, Rean, you dumbass.]

But all right. I guess I'll just have to wait with bated breath!
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[personal profile] motiv8 2019-04-10 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[???

Rean's confused, still, but he'll take the forehead press. If anything, he might briefly look disappointed that it was just a forehead press, but he's quick to follow after Crow like the little lost kouhai he is.]


Don't jump in the shower!

[...As if that'll actually work. Still, Rean's quick to head out the door, now just waiting in the hall for Crow and bouncing on his toes a little.]

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